when i lost you
love doesn’t always have to be a tragedy, but it seems i find the knives of imperfect mates that twist and whirl inside of me like a wicked dark magic; i wish i could find the right chemistry to heal my bruised and broken heart—but there is no potion nor salve which can heal all the things that went wrong between us, and i wish i could say i was over it; but i will always love you—i have always been intense like that, and perhaps that’s what drives people away; sometime i wish i could dim the lights of my intensity but they burn on in their chaotic song of light—and i have learned that i should not be ashamed of who i am, but i am ashamed of some of the things i’ve said and done; i strive to do better than yesterday—i am sorry you were driven away, my love will never fade away; even if that is not enough for me to be forgiven—always know that pink sunsets make me weep for everything i lost when i lost you.
these black feathers
are not mine,
but rather the scorched remnants
of what was once your wings;
the tragedy of love
can sometimes be you give it to the wrong person—
i should’ve never given you my heart
he decimated it with his claws
shattered me with indifference and insincerity
fed me lies he declared as truths,
and betrayed me when in
my moment of need
i reached my hands toward him in love;
he swatted it away
i was just the ever burdening gnat—
so when you destroyed me with his lust
i planted myself where he buried me
so that i could bloom
rising on the wings of the immortal phoenix
with flames in me that will never die.
Linda M. Crate‘s poetry, short stories, articles, and reviews have been published in a myriad of magazines both online and in print. She has five published chapbooks A Mermaid Crashing Into Dawn (Fowlpox Press – June 2013), Less Than A Man (The Camel Saloon – January 2014), If Tomorrow Never Comes (Scars Publications, August 2016), My Wings Were Made to Fly (Flutter Press, September 2017), and splintered with terror (Scars Publications, January 2018), and one micro-chapbook Heaven Instead (Origami Poems Project, May 2018). She is also the author of the novel Phoenix Tears (Czykmate Books, June 2018).